Sunday, December 12, 2010

And the winner is....

Number 11 is Butterflymom from On KK's Butterfly Wings

Congratulations!! Send me an email at ka_hall @ att(dot)net and I will get the Willow Tree Angel in the mail to you ASAP!

Thanks to everyone that entered, I'm really looking forward to getting to reading all of your blogs and getting to know you! Don't forget to keep checking in with Tina to see what's next!!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

25 Days of Giveaways!

Please accept my apologies...I set this up to post around 3:00 am, but apparently I did something wrong and it did not auto post like I had planed! And do not worry, I will leave the giveaway open until 5:00 pm CST on Sunday, December 12th to make sure everyone has time to enter!
Welcome to the Second year of 25 Days of Giveaways! I am so glad that Tina put this together again this year, I have been looking forward to it almost all year!
I had planed on making an ornament to giveaway again this year, but time just got a way from me...AGAIN! But the other night while shopping I saw this little angel and I knew she would be perfect.
The title of this piece is; a tree, a prayer - May you find strength, beauty and peace each day. That is what all of you do for me, you help me find strength, by reading my ridiculous ramblings, beauty, by sharing all the wonderful things going on around you and peace by letting me know that I am not alone! There is just something beautiful about the tree carved at the bottom of her skirt, it makes me smile and and I hope that she will help one of you find strength, beauty and peace each day too.

So to win all you need to do is leave a comment on this post and I will pick a winner using sometime this evening!

Good Luck to you all and make sure to check out the Katy's blog at In Hannah's Honor to see what she is giving away today!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Same Thing Different Year...

I can not believe we put up our Christmas Tree today! The past few weeks have just flown by. I have been on Thanksgiving break for over a week and am dreading go back to work in the morning, and my only saving grace is that there are just three more weeks until the Christmas Holidays.

As I am sitting in the office at the computer, the laptop is broken (another reason I haven't been posting), I can see the family across the street putting up there Christmas Lights and it makes me smile the little girls have been directing the Dad at what to do for over an hour now and the little brother has just joined in, they melt my heart...

I can not even think about another year coming to a close in just a few short weeks, I miss My Girls dearly and it always seems to be harder at the holidays. This week has been the worst. I have a dear friend from work that have grown very fond of and we tend to hang out a lot, she has four children...who are wonderful. But every time she would ask me to come over this week or to go do something I would decline. I feel horrid about it. But I just couldn't bring my self to do it, and for the life of me I can not think why. This friend is one of the most understanding people I have ever met but I find my self almost dreading going to work tomorrow because I am certain I have hurt her, by not getting together with her this week. Why am I so silly sometimes! I really enjoy having her as a friend and I hope I haven't ruined it!

Well I hear the timer for dinner beeping....I need to get going. More new post to come very VERY soon! I promise!!!

Friday, November 26, 2010

My My Time Flies!!!

I can not believe that yesterday was Thanksgiving! Christmas is just around the corner and before I know it 2011 will be in full swing.

For weeks now I have felt like I was behind, and the truth is I am. Work has been a whirl wind as of late, and there is never enough time for me to get everything done.

Which is why we haven't even taken our Christmas Pictures yet! And normally our Christmas cards go in the mail tomorrow! But not to worry...we are taking our pictures bright and early tomorrow morning, barring any more rain! And then first thing on Monday I will get to work ordering our cards from Shutterfly! I have been ordering A LOT of prints from them in the past few months and I even made a really cool calendar for a friend's Mom in a snap!

The only problem I know that I am going to have with our holiday cards is deciding on just ONE design, they have over 800...How could anyone just pick one!! If you haven't already checked out the AMAZING Holiday Card Designs they have, you should!!! These are a few of the ones I'm thinking about...I really want something fun and bright!

And they don't just have flat cards...they have some BEAUTIFUL Folded cards!!!But what I am most hoping for is that we get several great pictures tomorrow of both Mr. K & I and Maggie so we can do a multi picture card because I LOVE these! See I told do you pick just one! Now I'm so excited I can't wait to see what it looks like and so I can share it with all of you!

Are you a blogger? You can get 50 FREE Christmas Cards from Shutterfly!

Have a wonderful weekend, and I a hoping everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving!

If you want to see any of the cards above just click on the images to go to Shutterfly's site for that card! Happy Photo Shopping!!!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Where Did September go?

Wow was it really August when I posted last? I'm ashamed to say that is true and more than likely I won't be doing a lot of writing today, but just a little hello.

I'm still alive, although I have been swamped with work and my Dad, who has been in the hospital since August 10th! Needless to say over the last few weeks it has been a miracle if I got on the computer when I got home, and it tends to be a little difficult to read blogs from my cell phone and doing it from work is even harder.

I am happy to say my Dad came home from the hospital last night and so far he seems to be doing really well! He is even eating solid foods, which he hasn't done since before his surgery!

I am so far behind on so many of your blogs it is going to take me ages to catch up! I feel like I have missed so much and I know I am. I even missed the Walk to Remember last Saturday, I felt better when I realized I had never RSVPed, but still.

But I have missed you all and I hate being so behind, but I will catch up sooner or later! I'm setting a goal to get at least one post up a week for the rest of the year, lets hope that happens!

Friday, August 27, 2010

Happy Birthday Sweet Girls

Today is the Girl's Second Birthday. It wasn't the day that I had hoped for, but it was good just the same.

My Dad has been in ICU for several days and between that and school starting this week I haven't had much time to think or prepare for today. I knew I didn't want to throw a party again, but I did want to do something...and I feel like I don't feel like we did anything!

Mr. K and I did manage to get out to the cemetery and spend a few hours, even with the extreme heat, just sitting and talking to the girls.

I hate that things have been so chaotic, I don't feel like we did enough to remember them today, and that makes me sad.

I miss and love them as much as ever, some days it feels like and eternity and others it seams as if it was only yesterday. Today may not have been the day I was hoping for, but I spent it with Mr. K and we remembered our girls, and that is all that matters.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Back to work I go...

Tomorrow, I go back to work! It is hard to believe that I have had almost the entire summer off, how is that possible...I don't feel like I have anything to show for it! When May rolled around and I was thinking about all the things I was going to do this summer I had a really long list, and yes some of them got done, but the big things didn't! I wanted to paint my bedroom, find/buy/install vinyl decals in the bathroom and living room, paint the kitchen cabinets, hang drapes in the guest room, and a few more random things. I did get the garage cleaned out and the pedestals put on the washer and dryer and that was a BIG deal! I am glad we got that done, but still I wanted to do more.

The one thing I know I have done is shop, Shop and SHOP some more! My closet is beyond full and Mr.K has more clothes than he has ever had in his life, I think! The thing is I keep finding incredible deals on clothes, so I keep buying them. I will admit, I am a compulsive shopper! When I am sad or down I shop...A LOT! And this summer is prof of that, I am pretty sure I shopped ever day! The one week I didn't is the week we went on vacation! (I really need to get around to posting those pictures!)

I lastnight while getting a few things organized for me to go back to work is that I really am sad. I am sad that I don't post on here more often. I am sad that I am not pregnant. I am sad that my girls are not here. I am sad that there second birthday is 24 days away and for the life of me I do not know what I want to do to celebrate them! How is it possible that it has been almost two years? It doesn't seam possible at ALL! And it sure is not fair! I miss them so much, I miss them so much that I cried in the grocery store last week when a mom yelled at her little girl. I even had to pull in to a parking lot and cry when I saw an SUV with a bumper sticker that said "Got Twins?", I sat there and cried for so long that the security officer at the shopping center came over to check on me!

I really want to be shopping for MyGirls, I want to be finding all kinds of AMAZING deals on things for them! I don't want to just start crying at random anymore! I don't like crying at random! And I want my mom to stop looking at me like I am crazy, when I buy two pink windsocks to take to the cemetery. Yes Mom, it is normal (I guess) so stop judging me and get over it!

Maybe I just have to much free time on my hands. Maybe this will stop when school goes back and I get busy again.

Friday, July 2, 2010


Thanks to Hurricane Alex it has been raining here for the past 4 days! And don't worry I'm not complaining, I LOVE rain! Not only does it make it easier to nap off and on all day, it keeps me from needing to water my plants and turns everything GREEN! It also saves us from the 95 degree weather here in Texas and my air conditioner is very thankful for that! But unfortunately I have had to actually get out in the pouring rain over the past few days and that hasn't been fun, but it is not at all the worst part of the rain.
So what is the worst part of the rain you ask?
Maggie hates HATES rain! She despises getting her feet wet and unlike every other dog on the planet she doesn't like splashing in puddles. So she has spent the past 4 days like this... And this...
Lets hope the weather clears up or she is going to go crazy over the weekend!

Friday, June 25, 2010

Just an updated...

Wow, this summer is going bye so FAST! Did you know next week is July? I just realized that this morning! Any who, this summer has been busy, which is probably why it is going bye so fast!

We went to the Old Mans for Memorial Day weekend and had a blast, Maggie and Daisy were a hoot!

They learned to share...

Daisy got to know the Cows!

While Maggie begged to come in side!

And there were really pretty clouds!

And then like two weeks later school finally got out!
Since then My Dad and I have been keeping each other busy!
We cleaned out my garageSee BethAnne I told you! And we even hung cabinets!
And we put the pedestals on the washer and dryer, the pedestals that we have had for over a year!
I would have posted before and after pictures, but I don't have any because I would be completely embarrassed if anyone had seen what it looked like before! I will tell you this though, it was HORRIBLE!!

After the garage we did several days of shopping!! Cleaned out my old bedroom because it had become Mom and Dad's junk room. Went to the Farmers Market and had lunch with Dad's co-workers!
Dad misses his job so much! And it was really great to get to take him to see all of the guys he works with. And on top of it they all genuinely miss him too!

Then we celebrated Father's Day with Mr.K, My Dad and the OldMan. Dad and Baby Horse had so much fun!

And then this yesterday we got some awesome news! Dad's Chemo has done it's job! And the tumors have shrunk enough for the Drs to do surgery! No more chemo for now! And they will meet with the surgeons after the July 4th holiday!

So this weekend when our family gets together, we really do have something to celebrate!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Note to Self...

Don't leave blue pens where Maggie can find them!

Thankfully she did not go and jump in the middle of the bed with my super clean white sheets! Now lets just hope it will come off of her!

Oh How I love my Job...

It has been so long since I have said that, but it is true! The thing with jobs is you have to like love the people that you work with! And I do! They are a wonderful bunch, I really only have good things to say about them. The funny part is the woman I am closest too, TheBoss (who is not the boss, but that is what I will be calling her), is married to one of my teachers from High School! And let me just tell you it is very funny to hear her talk about him at home or complain about something that he did...or heaven forbid talk about their sex life! I almost want to laugh from embarrassment some times, I don't know why but I do! She is just one of those genuinely nice, wouldn't hurt a fly, down to earth, southern, christian women! And I love her! She actually worked at my High School when my brother was there and knows him and says every day she can't believe she never knew how awesome I was! (see I'm telling you nice!)

Most of the people that I work closely with know about TheGirls, some I have told and others know because they know someone who knows me out side of school and all of them have been nothing but nice and compassionate about it, which was an unbelievable relief. I didn't know it would feel so good for people to not look at me like I was crazy all of the time or treat my like I was sick or something. I truly feel blessed to work with such an amazing bunch.

There are several things about this new job that I love that I did not know were possible. The first is, when you have a crazy stressful day and come time to go home you set it all down and walk away! Who knew that happened! I, sure didn't! Yes, I can bring work home with me but I don't need to and they would probably tell me not to worry about it if I tried! The second thing is, I didn't know bosses actually told you that you are doing a good job when you are! This is something I have never had before it is so awesome, some days I want to record them saying nice things about me so I can replay it later on when I am at home! Crazy I know!

I know I will not stay at this job forever, it was really just a way to get me back in the swing of working again and to give me time to figure out what I want to do now! But when ever I start thinking about what I might do next I get very sad to think that I might not work with these people anymore!

I'm sure there about a dozen other reason I love this new job so much, but I didn't want to gush to much! And see I told you I was going to try and do better! I'm on a roll now...two post in two days! Now if I could manage to get some new pictures up! And you don't know how excited I was when I got home this afternoon and saw that I actually had comments! It made my day!!!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Is May realy half over?

I keep meaning to blog, but it just hasn't happened! Every time I sit down to do it I just get overwhelmed and quit! The problem is so much has happened and so much is still going on I just can't find a place to begin.

I love my Job, Kevin is changing Jobs but staying with the same organization, I'm not pregnant, Mothers Day was interesting (but not horrible) and My dad is sick. I think I am going to start with my Dad and maybe go from there, but I have a feeling I will be lucky if I actually get this up tonight!

My Dad has cancer, it is stage three and has spread to his lyphnodes and kidneys. He, in my opinion, is doing amazingly well. Some days I have to ask myself if it is actually him. He started chemo last week and like everything else, so far, has taken it in stride and has not let it stop him. He did take a leave of absence from work but that is more or less due to what he dose at work and that they wanted him too.

Most nights I find him sitting on my patio just thinking and relaxing, I don't know if I have seen him this laid back in all my life, but he is and he seams happy. And he is taking it easy on Mom too...which really helps. And even on Mother's Day (when almost know one else did) my Dad leaned over and whispered to me that he was thinking about me and that he missed the girls it made me tear up.

I know that I am a Daddy's girl threw and threw and I have been terrified about what losing my Dad will do to me, but I have decided not to think about it because he is going to get threw this. I truthfully believe that prayer helps and changes things. And let me tell you Dad has an amazing support network of friends and family praying for him and I know that makes all the difference.

I told you I wouldn't get very far (I need a phone I can blog from)...that is all I have time for tonight, I promise I will do my best to get something else off of my list tomorrow. And even if I'm not commenting I am still reading, even if I am behind! But I am thinking about all of you! I promise to get back into the swing of things soon!!!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Just a little Hello!

I started my job well over a month ago, I guess...and it is, well, nice! I like getting up and going to work and I like having a job where people don't freak out if something waits until tomorrow! But we will see if that keeps up! But so far so good!

The one bad thing about the job is that it has sent my heart and brain in to over drive....I know what I want and I know it just isn't the right time yet! But it hasn't stopped me from wanting. I guess in the back of my mind I thought a job would be like a magic wand and fix everything instantly! But it hasn't, but it is a start!

The best part of my job, so far, is the people I work with. They are all genuinely nice. And compassionate. A week or so ago I broke down and told my "boss" (and I use the word boss loosely) about TheGirls. I thought I would get threw it with out crying, but her reaction made me lose my composure and I started crying. She was so nice and thoughtful about the made me feel welcome and not like I use to. I definitely didn't feel like the elephant in the room. The even funny part is that she said to me later that she would never have guessed that something tragic had ever happened to me, that my personality is so warm and friendly that she never would have thought anything like that! And that made me feel good, because I rarely feel like the old me anymore, but maybe the new me is just as good in the right setting!

I have been finding it really hard to find time to blog but I have been able to check in on most of you a few times a week...and I promise I will get back to commenting soon! I just need to get better a prioritizing my time at night, it is a work in progress!

One other thing has been going on lately...and I am afraid I need to ask you all for a favor. My Dad has been having some issues for a few months now. He has seen his Dr and been in the hospital for testing and they could never figure out what was going on. That is until last week, they found a large tumor consuming more than half of his bladder. Yesterday we learned that he has Stage 3 bladder cancer. On one hand I am glad that he finally has a diagnosis but on the other I am terrified. Luckily we live in Houston and we have one of the countries best Cancer facilities! He is set to see the head of the urology department next week. And we are hoping for some good news, because we really haven't been told a whole lot at this point. Please keep us in your thoughts or prayers, I know we can use them.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Happy Shamrock Day!!

Maggie (and Mr.K and I) wish you a happy St. Patricks Day!

She really wanted to eat the camera after I took the first picture!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Well I haven't started my new job yet because of some crazy finger print snafu and the felon! Go figure! Plus on top of it all the woman in HR is being a real pain in the you know what, I think she thinks I really am the felon! And she keeps trying to say that I am going to be paid less than I actually am! Which yesterday made me have a little panic attack! I even started thinking about turning down the job! Yikes!

In other news...
I yelled at my mom, and it made me cry! I'm going to work for a local school district, not as a teacher, and my mom (and the rest of my family) thinks I should get my certification and teach. Granted two years ago I would have done it, no questions asked...but today I don't want too. I don't know if I could spend all day with someone else's children. What if a parent is mean to a child? Or doesn't treat a child right? I honestly don't think I could handle for now, I'm not going to teach. I might decide one day that I want to, and I will do it, but for now, I don't! But when my mom brought it up for the millionth time, I just let her have it. I told her it wasn't fair of her to keep asking me to do something I didn't want to do and did she not understand how it makes me feel to think about teaching and encouraging a strangers child when I want to be doing that with My Girls? For once it made her shut up! It felt good to shut her up but at the same time I finally admitted what I had been thinking for a long time now and that made me cry.

But what yesterday did I help me to see is that I need to stop worrying so much about what people say and think about me and just be me, whoever that is now. Because I have spent way to much time and energy avoiding telling so many people how I really feel, and I don't want to do it anymore! It is exhausting!

Some days I want to go back to the fun loving, outgoing, creative, shopaholic that I used to be. Some days I see glimpses of her and I realize how much I miss her. I wonder if my friends and family miss her too...

Small Bird Studio Giveaway!!!

Have you seen what Franchesca is doing at Small Bird Studio? It is amazing!

Go check it out! And enter for a chance to win a makeover...a BLOG MAKEOVER!

PS- Real post coming soon!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Super Exciting News!

I know I have been MIA, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to just happened!

My little part-time job has been to much to handle lately....actually it has been a burden and I hate it! I have been so over run that when I get home at night all I want to do is eat dinner and go to bed, which I have several times in the past few weeks!

And strangely enough when I get over run and stressed out I tend to get depressed, so then I cry and feel down in the dumps and (I hate to admit it this) I have a pity party! Which is a lot of the reason I have not written and have only been occasionally checking in!

But today all of that is going to change!

I QUIT my part-time job!

Because...I got a low stress, full time, with benefits J!O!B!

(Insert a picture of me jumping up and down here!)

I almost immediately quit my little part-time job, well I gave my notice any way. And as much as I wanted to say some very choice things to my boss I didn't! I was polite and even told her I would call if for some reason this new job doesn't work out! Which if I am perfectly honest, I will never do!

Can I tell you how excited I am? It has been a long LONG time since I have been this excited! And just a few hours ago I was sitting here on the verge of tears reading an adorable baby shower invite. Wishing and Hoping that it was for me and not a friend!

But tonight I get to cross one thing off my must do before trying again list! And I can live with that!

Good Bye, Depression!

Hello, New Job and Positive Outlook!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Just a Winner...

a week late! I'm so sorry I am so behind in posting this, but things have been crazy busy in the last week and today is the first day I had time to sit down and think about this! And without further ado the winner is...

Franchesca from Handprints from Heaven!!!

Fran- please send me an email at ka_hall(at)att(dot)net and I promise to get it to you a lot quicker than I announced that you won!

I hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day and week! I promise an actual post later tonight or tomorrow, I really have a lot to talk about! And I'm going to try to read up on all I have been falling behind on in the past week!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

100th Post

I MADE it! Can you believe it? I can't. It has been a rough 16 days...Last week I really didn't think I would make it! Thank you to so many of you reading and commenting, I really do appreciate it!

This past year has been a little crazy and it really is nice to have you all reading and I enjoy getting to know all of you as well! So in honor of all of you, IRL and Blog Friends alike I have a giveaway! I saw this the other day and I thought she was fitting.

She is The Angle of Wishes...

And she is my wish to all of you, well at least too one of you! Truthfully I wish I could give you each one.

So too enter all you need to do is comment to this post, I would love it if you were a follower but it is not a necessity and if you want tell me what your favorite Valentines Day was! As a bonus if you left a comment on any of my last 19 posts, before I wrote this post, you get a bonus entry for each comment! Oh - Lola and T, don't worry I will count your email comments too!

You have until 5:00pm CST Friday February 12th to enter!

Good Luck!!

Monday, February 8, 2010

How do I put this...

Please do not be offended by this post it is just my thoughts and feelings...

I went to High School with a girl, I wouldn't say we were friends exactly but we knew each other...she is my friend on FB, not that that means anything.

A few years after HS she gave birth to a little girl at 24 weeks. After over a year in the NICU and more than a dozen surgeries she came home. Which we all know is a miracle and amazing! The little girl has several very severe health conditions and now she has started having seizures...which I am sure must be terrifying and difficult for her parents to watch. I can not imagine the stress and pain that they go through on a daily basis. And I do feel for them, I really do.

But over the last few weeks her status updates have been about how she hates her life, how much of a struggle it is to be ____ parent and how life is not fair.

She is absolutely is not fair! And I can not imagine what her life is like, but her daughter is with her. She is not in heaven, with MyGirls or any of your babies for that matter. Some days I want to say to her that it could be worse...but I can't imagine ever doing that to anyone! I just wish there was a way for me to make her see show her how much different things could have been. And how blessed she really is.

Sunday Mornings

I normally like to spend my Sunday mornings sleeping in a bit and then having tea and toast on the patio, but it has been much too cold here lately for that! So we have just been staying in bed until we absolutely must get out. Yesterday Mr.K and I were joined by ever so loved furbaby…

Oh did I mention that she brought her duck? The bad part is where she is laying is where my legs were not 10 seconds before she jumped into the bed! I really was hoping she had forgotten how to get on the bed already, but no such luck! I guess this is how I will be spending many a Sunday morning for a while! But she was really good and slept at the foot of the bed for over an hour!

7 Layer Dip...

Can you tell that I am running out of things to write about? I have a couple different things in my head but I’m just not sure about writing them yet! T suggested a while back that I share a recipe or two and seeing as I made this last night I thought I would share it. Even though I’m positive that everyone has made or had this at least once, it is just too easy not to share!

7 Layer Dip

1can - Refried Beans
1can - Bean Dip
1pkg. - Guacamole
1cup - Sour Cream
1/2cup - Mayonnaise
1 pkg. taco seasoning
2cups - Shredded Jack and/or Cheddar Cheese
1can - sliced black olives
1sm. – Tomatoes- Chopped
2 bunches - Green Onion – Chopped

-Combine refried beans and bean dip; spread in bottom of small rectangular baking dish.

- Top bean mixture with guacamole.

-Combine sour cream, mayonnaise, and taco seasoning; layer on top of guacamole.

- Sprinkle with cheeses.

- Then top with olives, tomatoes, and green onion in that order.

- Cover and chill for about three hours - ENJOY!

Note: I like to make my own guacamole and for that I use: 2 large avocados, salt, pepper, garlic and lime juice. If you do use packaged guacamole add a teaspoon or two of lime juice to get if from browning as quickly.

From time to time I will add a half pound or so of taco meat to the bean mixture just to make it a little hardier, plus Mr.K likes it that way!

Oh and if you are wondering we always omit the onions because Mr.K is I guess we just eat 6 Layer Dip!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

This was not what I wanted to do today...

Do you ever have those Saturdays when you have nothing planned and hope to do nothing? Yah I didn't think either! Except today we didn't have any concrete plans just things we wanted/needed to do, and none of it happened!

Our original plan was to; sleep in, take Maggie to the DogPark, run to PetsMart, swing in at a happy hour/jewelry showcase and maybe catch a movie. Instead we were woken up EXTRA early from a phone call from my mom! Apparently they made plans for us today! Mr.K and my Dad planted two trees, cut down a bush and added a board to our fence to help keep Maggie in. My mom and I got the pods started for my vegetable garden, took my grandmother to the dollar store, and ran errands for Mr.K and my Dad! Oh what fun! And somehow it took all day! I hate when they make plans for us and don't tell us! And even more than that it drives me crazy that Mr.K and Dad spent all day planting trees and working in the yard of my parents house that they do not even live in! makes me so mad!

The one thing I did get done that I have been wanting to do for weeks was clean of the patio...and I'm supper excited about it! Mr.K and I are going to sit out there with our little fire and take it easy the rest of the night!

Hope you all had a good and productive Saturday!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

One of those days...

This morning I woke up and I didn't feel like getting out of bed, so I didn't. I really didn't sleep well last night and my head was pounding, so I went back to sleep. Plus it was raining and rain always helps me sleep.

I woke up again at 10am and still I had no interest in getting out of bed! So I didn't, it was not until almost 1pm that I decided that Maggie might need to get out. Out she went and then I was right back to bed!

I just don't feel like myself today, today I am sad...although I haven't really been able to cry! Which really makes it worse. I just wish I knew why I wasn't crying! Not that crying would make me feel better, but something would be better than nothing!

Maggie decided I needed company in bed this afternoon...

She has officially remembered how to get in our bed! Not good!
Any way, I hope you all had a better day then I did and don't worry I'm not going to spend tomorrow in bed...I actually have things I need to do!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Who said this was going to be fun?

If you don't already know Mr.K and I do not regularly see his mother, heck we don't ever see her! And truthfully I like it better this way! She is not a fan of me. And I will be the first to tell you the feeling is mutual!

Tonight however TheOldMan (Mr.K's Dad) invited her to dinner, this has happened about 100 times and she has always declined...but tonight she said YES! I was NOT happy about it but I knew I could do it. So off to dinner we went.

I was cordial, I guess, and I spoke and smiled when needed. The best part was I sat down and ordered a glass of wine, if looks could kill I wouldn't be typing this out right now! Apparently she wants grandchildren, I wanted to remind her she has two but, I didn't. Later she asked how it was going getting her a grandchild and I quickly changed the subject.

It is absolutely NONE of her business! She will be lucky if she finds out I am pregnant at all!

She also spent the evening trying to hold Mr.K's hand and staring into his eyes like he was her long lost love! I know that Mr.K means a lot to her and that it was a struggle for her to get him here safely! But after all she has done to him to us what does she think she is doing? I do know this...I do not understand her and I NEVER will!

The one thing I did enjoy was the three glasses of wine I had a dinner...and the fact that she judged me every time I took a sip!


Just a few updates from yesterdays posts...

BethAnne and Stubby both guessed correctly and sadly they were the only guesses at all! So Stubby you get my help with the upcoming move, if you want it? And BethAnne, please submit your request...although I know what it will be, yes I am working on your pants!

I called SiL this afternoon and casually asked about doing the invitations, which was not nearly as hard as I thought it would be! At first she said that she had already picked something out and Thanks but No Thanks! But then, I asked what she had picked out and if I could at least attempt to duplicate it, and she said YES! So, really it is only a try-out but that is better than nothing! And it will give me something creative to work on!

And lastly...the cemetery! This morning I had had enough with the cemetery situation and decided I could call and keep my cool! So I phoned and I remained calm...that is until the woman continued to call Lillian, Liliana even after I correct her THREE times! I was polite about it and emphasized the fact that there was no wonder the temporary marker was wrong because she couldn't get it right 20 seconds after I corrected her! She promised to get the temporary marker fixed, we will see how that goes, and supposedly e-mailed a copy of the sketch for the permanent has yet to arrive! But after doing a little research this afternoon I found the number to the management team and I am going to give them a call tomorrow! In my mind they should make every effort to make this as smooth and easy for me as possible, and they haven't...and I have had ENOUGH!

Also, just a little thank you to all of you for your comments yesterday! I really do appreciate them!

I Don't Want to Do the Right Thing

I usually always do the right thing. Except here lately I have been doing the 'wrong' thing.

A while back I forgot to take my BC pill a couple days in a row, so then I just stopped taking it...I kept telling my self I would start taking it again the next day, but that never happened so then 2 months went bye. The worst part was I didn't tell Mr.K, then one day he asked and I started crying so he dropped it..but from that moment I knew, he knew.

We didn't talk about it again and I never started it again. That was November...

Every day I would wake up and say a little prayer to the baby I just knew was in my tummy and every month AF would come visit and I would get a little sad. The whole time I knew I should start taking it, but for some reason I could not make my self do it. Then two weeks ago I started having these cramps and I got all freaked out, so I went to see Dr.R...hoping/wishing/ praying that he would say I was pregnant and afraid beyond belief that something was wrong. Alas he did not and then last week AF came to visit, again.

But finally Mr.K and I had a real conversation about it...I teared up but it was still a productive conversation.

Last night I started taking my BC again.

It is not what I want, it is just what I need to do. Because I do the right thing.

Monday, February 1, 2010

I just need to ask...

I want to ask the SiL if I can design and take care of making the invitations for BabyHorses First Birthday, and yes I know it is over a month away but I'm thinking ahead!

I'm really trying to prepare myself to celebrate his big day, and I thought this would be a good way to test the waters. I have come so far this past year and I feel like I missed out a lot on the first few weeks and months of his life and I hate that. So maybe this would be a way to start making up for it. And maybe I could feel like I am part of it all, not that it matters. But her brother and sisters are very close to BabyHorse and it makes me feel left out, even though I know it is my own fault.

I really want to ask her, yes I know it can't hurt to ask, but I don't want her to say no! And because of that I haven't asked...I know I'm silly. But I am really afraid of her saying no, I don't want to feel rejected. I wish I could do the wrong thing and just tell her I'm doing them, but that is NOT me. And I would never ever want someone to do that to me!

Now if I can just gather the nerve to ask...

Once Upon a Time...

We had an SD card for our camera that looked like this...

Now it looks like this...

As her "punishment" I made her pose for this picture...

But don't worry...The week before I was trying to clean off some of the junk on the card and managed to delete EVERY picture on it! Go Me!

Why can't you do your job?

About a week ago the people from the cemetery called to let us know that The Girls temporary marker had finally arrived and had been placed! I was super excited, we had been waiting so long. Over the weekend Mr.K and I finally made out to see it and this is what we found...

Needless to say I was not happy! We have gone over the specifics with them about a million times, how could they have gotten it wrong? I need to call them and discuss it and make sure the permanent marker will be correct, but I am just so angry right now I can't do it! I don't want to say anything that I will regret and here lately I just can not control my temper, which is not like me at all! Last week I got very upset with a woman from our car insurance company and I called her so very ugly names...I fell horribly about it and I don't want to do it again. So for now I will wait and try to get Mr.K to call! I just wish someone would do their job!


Mr.K thought it was funny that you can see what we were watching last night in the pictures of Maggie and he thought it would be funny to do a giveaway! So...

If you can correctly identify what Mr.K and I were watching last night you will win a prize, yet to be determined...but it will be good - I promise! So make your guesses and I will select a random winner from the correct answers! You have until Tuesday February 2nd at 5:00pm CST and anyone can enter!

Don't be shy...Make a Guess!

Good Luck!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Our Sunday Nights

For the most part on Sundays Mr.K and I get all our running and doing done early in the day and around 5 or 6 sit down for dinner and then catch up on everything on the DVR or watch a movie. It is a nice way for us to relax before our week starts and I like taking it easy on Sundays. A few years ago we discovered that the only way to keep me awake was to play cards...which I don't mind at all! So tonight, as with any other Sunday, we played Skip-Bo except tonight we had some help... And even though I have the laptop she is still sitting between the two of us. At first I thought it was funny, but now I'm beginning to wonder if she is trying to protect me from Kevin...we shall see!

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Strange Advertising

So I saw this the other day and I couldn't help but take a picture...
I didn't know school buses were being used to advertise pizza places, but apparently the school district is in need of some money or at least I guess! Anyway if you think about it is pretty funny!

And don't worry I was stopped at a light when I took this picture! Even though I did happen to get a ticket that day but it wasn't at this point! Oh and I do have an actual post for later!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

International Babylost Mothers Day

I just spent a while visiting Carly's new site...she is so amazing! And the site is beautiful!

This year International Babylost Mothers Day is Sunday the Second of May.
Go and visit and spread the word.
Any ideas on what you will do on this special day?

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I'm a Coupon Shopper

My last post made me think...

Did you know that I am a bargain shopper? I shop with coupons...I buy just about EVERYTHING with coupons!

I can feed Mr.K and I, about, three meals a day for a month for $100 or less. Oh and you need too consider that we also feed my Grandmother two or three nights a week. And when I was feeding my Mom and Dad on a regular basis that only went up too about $150. Yes I am the woman you hate to get behind in line at the Supermarket. The one that has all of the circulars from all of the other stores and coupons to go along with it. The only down side it takes me two or three times longer to grocery shop then anyone else I know...but I'm pretty sure it is worth it!
There are only two things that I always have in my pantry & freezer that I will buy with out a coupon...Peanut butter and Blue Bell Ice Cream. We always have both, and not just one container. Right now, for instance, we have 3 half gallons in the house freezer and 2 in the garage freezer...we like Blue Bell, can you tell? And I caught it on sale!

And don't worry, I can do the same thing with clothes! Right now I have on a shirt I bought two weeks ago for $1.25, it was originally $35.00 and yes I had a coupon! I couldn't tell you the last thing I bought that was not on sale. Everyone I know IRL, wants/has me shop for them...I love it!

So this is my coupon shopping advice for you:

  • Clip it even if you don't use it. Many areas of groups that gather too swap coupons.
  • Try to combine your coupon use with sales.
  • Your best bet on places to shop are those that honor others sales prices and/or those that double and triple coupons.
  • Make a list, and stick to it.
  • Use online resources for coupons, some of the best coupons I use come from here!
  • If you shop at a particular store regularly register with them online, they will send you coupons and many times let you know about special sales.
  • Watch for special days when stores double coupons up to a dollar...these specials can save you a lot of money!
  • Some stores will give you a store coupon for purchasing a particular item...that is basically free money! Make sure to use them!
  • And the BIGGEST thing...make sure you know the stores coupon and sales regulations! It can really hurt you if you don't follow the rules!

Please don't think I'm crazy, it really works! Happy Coupon Shopping!

What do you do to save money?

It cost what?

Mr.K says that I don't pay enough attention to my surroundings when I am out and about alone. Today I think he was wrong. Today I over heard the following conversation:

Woman in Red: The plane tickets were free, we are using our frequent flyer miles.

The Friend: Oh OK and where are you staying?

Woman in Red:We haven't worked that out yet, but I'm sure I will today.

The Friend: And how much were the tickets?

Woman in Red: 6.

The Friend: 6 what? 6 dollars? 6 million...what?

Woman in Red: Six THOUSAND Dollars.

The Friend: Each!?!

I couldn't hear what the Woman in Red said exactly, but she shook her head yes!

The Friend: WOW! You must be a HUGE fan!

Woman in Red: Well we lived in New Orleans all our lives before we moved here five years ago, so yeah we are!

At this point I realized they were talking about the Super Bowl! I freaked out a bit but continued what I was doing and stopped listening. I really couldn't get it threw my head...$6,000 EACH! $12,000 for TWO tickets too the Super Bowl!!! I had NO idea they went for that much!! Is that normal? Is that legal? I'm sure it is, but Goodness Gracious that's a heck of a lot of money! When the Super Bowl was in Houston a few years ago, a vendor offered me tickets, but I didn't really have that much interest in going and one of my co-workers needed four I gave her my two tickets. And before you freak out, don't worry it was Mr.K's idea...he's not really in to sports. We generally watch college football and some baseball, but that is about it!

As I was working, I kept thinking about what I could do with $12,000! That's a LOT of money! A WHOLE LOT OF MONEY!! I even started thinking about what I could do with $6,000...because lets face it that still is a LOT of money!

So with $6,000 I think I would pay off a few bills and then save the rest! And maybe just maybe buy a pair of these...

I have wanted them since I was in college...but not exactly something a girl in Pasadena, Texas needs! And lets face it, I wouldn't actually buy them...but I might just go and look at them.

And with $12,000 I would save a big part of it and probably start my own design business, well do it full time any way.

So here is my question for you...what would you do with $6,000 or even $12,000?

Just so you know... no matter what I think I would spend the money on most of it would go to the lets have a baby fund.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Cuddle Bug!

I told you..expect a few about Maggie!

So since Maggie had her surgery she has become quite a is actually pretty funny, if you are on the couch, she wants to be right there with you! Most of the time Mr.K and I spend watching TV is spent like this...

Yes I know Mr. K needs a hair cut and I can't believe a posted a photo of myself with out makeup, but oh well...that's me!

When I am trying to work or do something in the afternoon, I'm lucky if she will lie next to me!

She would rather I let her get on the keyboard!

And when Mr.K tried to take a nap on Saturday afternoon, she wanted to join in on that too!

She is so funny! Right now she is begging to go and play with the little girls across the street, but they still have homework to do!

I have a Goal!

Last year when I started this blog in the back of my head I thought there was no reason in the world that I could not put up 100 or even 200 post in a year's time! I mean I have so many things running around in my head; this has got to be easy, real easy!

Boy oh Boy was I WRONG! Her; I am 16 days from my first blogversary and low and behold I have only posted 80 times! That really doesn't even seem possible, but it is very true! Go ahead is right over there --------------->

I know I can't believe it either! Only 80 times, oh wait this will count as number 81! So this is my goal, I want to hit 100 by or on the 9th of February!! Meaning I have 20 19 post to put up in 16 days...1.1875 post per day, or I guess 6 post every 5 days...seems doable enough though, I guess! And I hope I don't end up just putting up pictures of Maggie to get there, actually I promise I won't! But please expect one or two!

So bear with me these next 16 days...any suggestions on what to talk about? Because to tell the truth as soon as I thought of this my head fell empty! And really if you know me at all you know I will talk/write about anything!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

A new Friend...I Don't Think So!

Mr.K and I went to a friends house for a Rose Bowl/Dinner party. It was really nice to get out of the house and I was really looking forward to meeting one of the other couples that was going to be there because our hostess kept saying how much we had in common and she really hoped we could help each other and that intrigued me! So we went over and I had high hopes for how the evening would play out, I was really hoping to make a new friend. But that's not what happened. I left feeling angry and offended.

I met a woman, around my age and from what she told me she is struggling from infertility. As soon as this came up I understood what my friend & hostess had meant, and I was glad that she thought that maybe we could become good friends. But as we sat there and the night went on, I didn't feel that way at all. I felt like I was meeting a woman that was using her infertility and in a way that felt wrong and almost like she was making sure you felt sorry for her. Now don't get me wrong, I get that...I guess. But there were so many parts of her struggle that didn't add up.

They have been trying to conceive for over three years now, a point that she repeated again and again. She has spoken about their struggle to her OBGYN but did not follow his instructions. She did start taking the clomid that he prescribed but did not follow the instructions exactly. She knows she should see a specialist, but she won't go. She also knows she probably needs a new OBGYN, she won't do that either. (Her OBGYN has a reputation in our area from being old fashion and extremely wacky) I recommended her giving Dr. R a call and at least just meeting with him and getting his opinion but she didn't want to do that either!

I understand the whole being in denial thing so I thought if I told her our story she might consider making a change, if that really was what she wanted. But instead she made me feel like everything that happened with the girls was my fault! And that her problems were much worse than mine!!!! She even had the nerve to say that God had a way of taking care of things that aren't meant to be and my girls must have not been good enough to come here!!! Who says that kind of SHIT to a person! Even if you think it...who says it!

I can't say that I understand her struggle with infertility but I feel I am compassionate and understanding. For over a year now I have read so many of your stories of infertility and your struggles in getting pregnant again after a loss...but I never felt like you judge anyone that did not struggle to conceive and then lost a child, I don't feel like you judge at all. So how can she sit there and judge me to my face and say it was my fault!?!

I left dinner that night so angry I couldn't even think straight! I don't know how to deal with this woman and I don't want to! But twice now we have both been invited to dinner at our mutual friends house..and both times we didn't know they had been invited. The first time I only spoke when directly spoken too and avoided eye contact with her the entire time and shortly after dinner we politely made and excuse and left. The second time we arrived early and quickly learned they were coming! Like a baby I sent a text to my mom and asked her to call and make up and emergency to get us out of it! Thankfully she did and we left before they even got there! I feel like a coward! Who dose that! This is not who I am! But still I did it!

And I feel guilty!

And I am angry!

A Few Confessions

Well I really meant to do better at blogging then this, but I haven't!

I have wanted to write, I just don't seem to know how to right now...

I met a girl around my age at dinner at a friends house a few weeks ago and I she got me all flustered and irritated! I'm still mad about it, even though I swore to Mr.K it wasn't bothering me anymore! I have started a post about the whole thing I just haven't finished it is a work in progress!

Here lately every time I think things are finally going to right way...turns out they aren't!

I have been a bad friend to blog friends...I haven't been on here in almost a week! I'm doing my best to catch up now! I'm sorry if I haven't commented - sometimes I just don't know what to say!

I have been a bad friend to my IRL friends too...I don't know what to say to any of you either these days! Please bare with me.

I went to the Dr. this week because I have been sick and about had a conniption when I realized how much I weigh, I won't go into details...but if I was a bit taller I good probably play football! It made me sick and depressed and I ate ice cream to make myself feel better as well as made all kinds of snack food and baked goods! Go Me! I'm sure I gained another 5 pounds!

I want to get pregnant. Mr.K wants to have another baby, the truth is we just can't afford it. And I hate that! That makes the whole thing worse! Part of me doesn't even care!

I started having these strange and bad cramps last Thursday so I made an appointment to see Dr.R, even though I felt silly doing so, I feel am paranoid...but when I called the scheduling department she said they couldn't fit me in so I asked to be transferred to his nurse, she came to the line and was immediately concerned and squeezed me in! That made me feel better! I got there and Dr.R had been called to the hospital for an emergency...I'm going back tomorrow, I don't know why...the pains stopped I just want him to tell me everything is OK.

I have six loads of laundry I need to do. Mr.K might not have any clean jeans for work tomorrow but somehow I don't care!

I only got out of my PJ's today because of necessity and I was angry about it the whole time!


This was not at all what I started out to blog about ..but I somehow feel better now!

Anything you want to confess? Feel free to do is surprisingly refreshing, or at least I think it is!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

2009 is Long Gone!

Wow! I really never meant to take such a long brake from blogging…I guess that just happens from time to time! And I never meant for this to be what I would write about, but oh well! I know exactly where I’ve been - right here at home, reading. I have a new love addiction obsession with Twilight. Yes I am a little embarrassed, but I can’t seem to get enough of these books. I did not really know anything about the books until I went back to work last year and the new girl that was hired while I was gone really REALLY loved them! And because she didn’t know me or anything that had gone on with the girls, we quickly became friends – I needed someone who would acknowledge my existence! When the movies came out she took a day of vacation so she could see the movie at midnight. And even thought she really had me intrigued it took me several months after the girls were born to start reading again and it was very far from the top of must read list. But this winter I have had a lull in my reading list and was looking for something to pick up. Thankfully BethAnne took care of that for me and bought the first two books for me for my birthday…which I was super EXCITED about! Any way here just a few weeks later I have read all four books and I find myself wishing for more! I even had to run to WalMart when we were visiting the Old Man for New Years to get book number three so I wouldn’t explode! And yes I feel very silly, but oh well! I wish I understood my love of these books but I don’t know what it is. I do know that in book two I really connected with Bella and her broken heart, which is EXACTLLY how I felt after the girls were born! The world was going on without me and I didn’t even notice! Even though some days I feel like I could so easily go right back to that place, if I wanted, but I feel so far from it at the same time. I really don’t want to go back to that place, I might not be super Happy either, but I am getting bye – and that’s all that matters! Right?

I have been doing my best to cheek in every few days and see what going on with all of you and doing my best to comment, even though I’m not always good at it…I’m hoping to get better. I am really thankful for this community, I really think it has gotten me a lot further then I couldn’t have gotten myself. And again I am truthfully thankful! I have high hopes for 2010 and I’m planning on being a little better at blogging regularly this year, but obviously I haven’t done so well thus far. I’m also planning on doing my best to get in to shape and lose some weight, I think I might join in
Erika’s Skinny Tuesday…it really is a great idea! So that is my goal for next week!

Marie at
My Expected End nominated me for an award weeks ago, and I haven’t gotten around to it yet…hopefully I will get to it today! If not soon, I promise! I don’t know if I am the only one that dose this but I have about a 10 different post partially composed in my head, I just need to sit down and write them out! One of which I am going to start as soon as I post this!
So Happy 2010! I know I am late, but oh well…Better Late than Never!

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