WTF

So I got a letter in the mail today, the same letter I am sure the other 30,000 residences in this crazy city got. A letter from the city and the EPA. A letter about our water quality, last year. And what do I find on the last page of this letter? A notice! A notice that lets us know that for two months in 2008, April and May, the City and EPA "did not correctly monitor our water" and it may have contained contaminants that were particularly harmful and/or deadly to children, the elderly, and pregnant women and their unborn children...Well that sure makes you think doesn't it?

Last April and May that was me! I was pregnant! My girls, my precious girls were inside me trying to grow big and strong! And this damn city, a city that can be bothered with recycling, didn't monitor the water it was sending to our houses! HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE! HOW CAN THEY DO THAT?

You know I thought I had finally gotten to a point where I wasn't furious at my body for flaking out. I thought I had finally gotten to a point that I wouldn't be angry at myself anymore! And now someone comes along and says we might have exposed you to something that was harmful! You know just casual, like it was no big deal!

And yes I know it is quite possible that whatever was in the water didn't have anything to do with our situation. And I know there is no way we will ever know anything any different, but still! I am ANGRY! I am MAD! And I am HURT!

I wish that letter never got put in my box!