Under the Tree - March

These are my answers to the March Under the Thee Gathering, if you want to know more about the Under the Tree Gatherings you can visit here. Thanks again Carly, I think this an amazing thing! And Thanks to those reading, it is nice to know you are there!

Do you have a special place in your home for your baby/ies? What is it like? Do you have any rituals that you perform in memory of your baby/ies?

I must admit when I first read this question I said to my self "No! No! How can I not have a place for Adison & Lillian", but then I remembered I do have a place! It is a new addition to the house, Mr. K and I just finished it a week or so ago!

I sent the images of the girls names in the sand (Thanks again Carly!) to the photo lab, framed, and hung them in our bedroom. And every night before I go to bed I blow the girls a kiss! I miss them, but now I feel like they are closer...that they are with us more these days!

If you believe in an afterlife, do you receive signs from your baby/ies? Have you ever felt their presence? Do you find them in nature? Do they visit you in your dreams?

I most defiantly believe in an afterlife, I believe that our girls have some very special people taking care of them, while we are apart. And that one day we will all be reunited. I see "signs" from them all over the place, just this morning I noticed two perfect little roses budding together on my rose bush outside of the kitchen window, and it made me smile and think of them! (I would take and post a picture but, it is raining like you would not believe outside!)

I have started dreaming about Adison & Lillian almost nightly, it is so strange...some of the dreams are just them playing and others are images of "milestones"- the first day of school, Christmas, and learning to ride there bikes! At first I would wake up and feel sad, but the last few nights there have been other children in the dreams too, and I wake up with a feeling that everything is going to be ok...and that they know we love them!

Do you have a special poem, song, prayer or quote in memory of your baby/ies?

Quotes and songs are the hardest for me. But I love the quote we chose for the memorial service booklet: Those we have held in our arms for a little while, we hold in our hearts forever...

I loved it from the moment I read it (we have debated on putting it on the monument)

This is so true, they will never leave my heart. When I first went back to work I had a customer tell me that she and her husband had gone threw a similar situation twenty years earlier, she said, "the pain is long gone, but I will never forget, my twins are always in my heart"

And there are probably a million songs that make me think of them, a million to many for me just to pick one.