Who said this was going to be fun?

If you don't already know Mr.K and I do not regularly see his mother, heck we don't ever see her! And truthfully I like it better this way! She is not a fan of me. And I will be the first to tell you the feeling is mutual!

Tonight however TheOldMan (Mr.K's Dad) invited her to dinner, this has happened about 100 times and she has always declined...but tonight she said YES! I was NOT happy about it but I knew I could do it. So off to dinner we went.

I was cordial, I guess, and I spoke and smiled when needed. The best part was I sat down and ordered a glass of wine, if looks could kill I wouldn't be typing this out right now! Apparently she wants grandchildren, I wanted to remind her she has two but, I didn't. Later she asked how it was going getting her a grandchild and I quickly changed the subject.

It is absolutely NONE of her business! She will be lucky if she finds out I am pregnant at all!

She also spent the evening trying to hold Mr.K's hand and staring into his eyes like he was her long lost love! I know that Mr.K means a lot to her and that it was a struggle for her to get him here safely! But after all she has done to him to us what does she think she is doing? I do know this...I do not understand her and I NEVER will!

The one thing I did enjoy was the three glasses of wine I had a dinner...and the fact that she judged me every time I took a sip!

Updates

Just a few updates from yesterdays posts...

BethAnne and Stubby both guessed correctly and sadly they were the only guesses at all! So Stubby you get my help with the upcoming move, if you want it? And BethAnne, please submit your request...although I know what it will be, yes I am working on your pants!

I called SiL this afternoon and casually asked about doing the invitations, which was not nearly as hard as I thought it would be! At first she said that she had already picked something out and Thanks but No Thanks! But then, I asked what she had picked out and if I could at least attempt to duplicate it, and she said YES! So, really it is only a try-out but that is better than nothing! And it will give me something creative to work on!

And lastly...the cemetery! This morning I had had enough with the cemetery situation and decided I could call and keep my cool! So I phoned and I remained calm...that is until the woman continued to call Lillian, Liliana even after I correct her THREE times! I was polite about it and emphasized the fact that there was no wonder the temporary marker was wrong because she couldn't get it right 20 seconds after I corrected her! She promised to get the temporary marker fixed, we will see how that goes, and supposedly e-mailed a copy of the sketch for the permanent marker...it has yet to arrive! But after doing a little research this afternoon I found the number to the management team and I am going to give them a call tomorrow! In my mind they should make every effort to make this as smooth and easy for me as possible, and they haven't...and I have had ENOUGH!

Also, just a little thank you to all of you for your comments yesterday! I really do appreciate them!

I Don't Want to Do the Right Thing

I usually always do the right thing. Except here lately I have been doing the 'wrong' thing.

A while back I forgot to take my BC pill a couple days in a row, so then I just stopped taking it...I kept telling my self I would start taking it again the next day, but that never happened so then 2 months went bye. The worst part was I didn't tell Mr.K, then one day he asked and I started crying so he dropped it..but from that moment I knew, he knew.

We didn't talk about it again and I never started it again. That was November...

Every day I would wake up and say a little prayer to the baby I just knew was in my tummy and every month AF would come visit and I would get a little sad. The whole time I knew I should start taking it, but for some reason I could not make my self do it. Then two weeks ago I started having these cramps and I got all freaked out, so I went to see Dr.R...hoping/wishing/ praying that he would say I was pregnant and afraid beyond belief that something was wrong. Alas he did not and then last week AF came to visit, again.

But finally Mr.K and I had a real conversation about it...I teared up but it was still a productive conversation.

Last night I started taking my BC again.

It is not what I want, it is just what I need to do. Because I do the right thing.

I just need to ask...

I want to ask the SiL if I can design and take care of making the invitations for BabyHorses First Birthday, and yes I know it is over a month away but I'm thinking ahead!

I'm really trying to prepare myself to celebrate his big day, and I thought this would be a good way to test the waters. I have come so far this past year and I feel like I missed out a lot on the first few weeks and months of his life and I hate that. So maybe this would be a way to start making up for it. And maybe I could feel like I am part of it all, not that it matters. But her brother and sisters are very close to BabyHorse and it makes me feel left out, even though I know it is my own fault.

I really want to ask her, yes I know it can't hurt to ask, but I don't want her to say no! And because of that I haven't asked...I know I'm silly. But I am really afraid of her saying no, I don't want to feel rejected. I wish I could do the wrong thing and just tell her I'm doing them, but that is NOT me. And I would never ever want someone to do that to me!

Now if I can just gather the nerve to ask...

Once Upon a Time...

We had an SD card for our camera that looked like this...

Now it looks like this...

As her "punishment" I made her pose for this picture...

But don't worry...The week before I was trying to clean off some of the junk on the card and managed to delete EVERY picture on it! Go Me!

Why can't you do your job?

About a week ago the people from the cemetery called to let us know that The Girls temporary marker had finally arrived and had been placed! I was super excited, we had been waiting so long. Over the weekend Mr.K and I finally made out to see it and this is what we found...

Needless to say I was not happy! We have gone over the specifics with them about a million times, how could they have gotten it wrong? I need to call them and discuss it and make sure the permanent marker will be correct, but I am just so angry right now I can't do it! I don't want to say anything that I will regret and here lately I just can not control my temper, which is not like me at all! Last week I got very upset with a woman from our car insurance company and I called her so very ugly names...I fell horribly about it and I don't want to do it again. So for now I will wait and try to get Mr.K to call! I just wish someone would do their job!

Giveaway...

Mr.K thought it was funny that you can see what we were watching last night in the pictures of Maggie and he thought it would be funny to do a giveaway! So...

If you can correctly identify what Mr.K and I were watching last night you will win a prize, yet to be determined...but it will be good - I promise! So make your guesses and I will select a random winner from the correct answers! You have until Tuesday February 2nd at 5:00pm CST and anyone can enter!

Don't be shy...Make a Guess!

Good Luck!