Just a little Hello!

I started my job well over a month ago, I guess...and it is, well, nice! I like getting up and going to work and I like having a job where people don't freak out if something waits until tomorrow! But we will see if that keeps up! But so far so good!

The one bad thing about the job is that it has sent my heart and brain in to over drive....I know what I want and I know it just isn't the right time yet! But it hasn't stopped me from wanting. I guess in the back of my mind I thought a job would be like a magic wand and fix everything instantly! But it hasn't, but it is a start!

The best part of my job, so far, is the people I work with. They are all genuinely nice. And compassionate. A week or so ago I broke down and told my "boss" (and I use the word boss loosely) about TheGirls. I thought I would get threw it with out crying, but her reaction made me lose my composure and I started crying. She was so nice and thoughtful about the situation...it made me feel welcome and not like I use to. I definitely didn't feel like the elephant in the room. The even funny part is that she said to me later that she would never have guessed that something tragic had ever happened to me, that my personality is so warm and friendly that she never would have thought anything like that! And that made me feel good, because I rarely feel like the old me anymore, but maybe the new me is just as good in the right setting!

I have been finding it really hard to find time to blog but I have been able to check in on most of you a few times a week...and I promise I will get back to commenting soon! I just need to get better a prioritizing my time at night, it is a work in progress!

One other thing has been going on lately...and I am afraid I need to ask you all for a favor. My Dad has been having some issues for a few months now. He has seen his Dr and been in the hospital for testing and they could never figure out what was going on. That is until last week, they found a large tumor consuming more than half of his bladder. Yesterday we learned that he has Stage 3 bladder cancer. On one hand I am glad that he finally has a diagnosis but on the other I am terrified. Luckily we live in Houston and we have one of the countries best Cancer facilities! He is set to see the head of the urology department next week. And we are hoping for some good news, because we really haven't been told a whole lot at this point. Please keep us in your thoughts or prayers, I know we can use them.